recently~

Watch -The spy next door- recently...
well~I'm quite expected before i saw this movie~
coz that movie was acted by Jackie Chan ~
in my memory, Jackie's movie was... huge manufacture,
interesting, a bit humor...
but when i watched...felt that it's a bit bored...
& the story was repeated... (some la~)
the net friend also said it's repeating the same story from -Project BB-
but besides those...it's still a good movie la~^^

ai~ it's damn annoy+ busied+ tired recently T_T
It's just being school opened a few days...
but I'm already felt tired~

the reasons was:

1.My physique problems...(i need more sleep coz of my physique)
2.My high school studies & the exams
4.My family...
3.i suddenly get a lot of works for our school projects...
ex:create/design the graduate's special edition, class designer,
association designer, find sponsors, etc
4.a lot of activities to works, ex: sports day, class paint competition,
5.design: uniform , graduate T-shirt, class T-shirt etc...
6.work for school: as a new year painter for school~
where is my commission? huh?


Before open school, i mean last year,
i thought i will concentrate on my comings examination.
But i can't~ Coz it's a lot of things to do...damn torment!
everyone seems like already habit's to let me do these all things...
how come so unfair? Everyone should be have their own work,
not when teacher said :any volunteers? you guys just says: a...Chou Ting la~
then I'll be damn busy & tire...
i don't even though that being the top painter of our class is like this one...
if i early knowed that, i don't wanna be!
we might be work together... dun press on me!!!

Not to felt that:
I'm useless la~
I can't complete la~
let she do la~ she can catch up de~
aiya~ it's nothing to do with me~you know, i'm week!
I'm busied leh~
then how about me?
I'm busied also leh~ i have a lot of tuition, i wanna get money...
then where i have those times to do these?
why always me? I'm tired already~
can you guys just think for me?

i even don't know how much of (without benefit's) works i gonna meet...
it's a huge pressure that you can't imagine, if i can't completed it all~
I'm worried about the reaction of them (teachers, friends, even my parents...)
i am just a manner like this~
But if i refused, then someone must said I'm lazy & irresponsible...
how can i do?
those things made me worn...

The pressure keep pressing on me, i became like don't wanna said to anyone,
I became no mood, less smile, more cool...
Then the those boys will keep on calling me as a 'chuan girl'...
I don't wanna care about it liao~
actually i supper hate this name!

Another one is my privates matters...
--my family~
well, my home's having some problems lately...
I can't control it's happen...
no one knows my annoyance...
God, it that's my disaster year? Can you just set me free?
I'm just a 17 teen...
What did i wanna bear these stuffs?
If my future must be continuing miserable like that,
I defiantly will be insane T_T

what a SCHOOH!
what a CLASS!
what a FAMILY!!!